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(no subject) [May. 17th, 2008|09:43 pm]
aI told you I'm fickle-minded! 


Relink me at http://c-harmaine.blogspot.com ! :D 

but this LJ will stay. cause locked posts will be updated:}
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I'm fickle-minded.I feel like switching to blogger:X [May. 17th, 2008|08:21 pm]
[Current Mood |depresseddepressed]
[Current Music |I'll stand by you - Carrie Underwood]

Ahhhh. I feel like switching back to blogger:X Okay, I know, I'm fickle-minded :X

Yesterday was a hell day for me. All those happenings in the day caused me to have a serious headache at night. It's just so depressing.

Yes, and i didn't have a good night. & I woke up at only 10.05am when I'm suppose to have tuition at 10am! & guess what? My mummy even called me from China! Here's our conver!

(in chinese)
Mum: What are you doing?
Me: sleeping.
Mum: what time is your tuition today?
Me: 10am.
Mum: do you know what time is it now?
Me: -checks the time- OHMYGOD. -jumps up from my bed- okayokay! i go washup! -hangs the phone.-

Hahah! Yes, I love my mummy. Though she's in china, her heart is still w us. Mummy, I love you.
So yah, tuition teacher was late. She came at only 10.30am. Lol. yah. So had tuition. Pretty okay today. tuition teacher left and yiping came over to my house.we chatted abt the depressing stuffs and the happy memories we shared.

thn, we I studied.LOL! She didn't! she's naughtyyyyy :D thn we went to use the comp. i transfered my music that she like, to her ipod and allowed her to charge her ipod too. Thn, I bathed while she read a comic. We went to westmall to buy my stuffs.
I bought my file, and all my stationeries &&!! A leap of love! <3 FINALLY. I waited for it for idk how long. It's pretty cheap too. Cheaper than i expected:} Thn I treated her to bubble tea since she lend me her popular card. yah. thn we walked to bus-interchange.

&&!! we were talking abt weddings. we talked abt weddings being held in macdonalds, bus interchanges, buses, trains, taxis alot alot silly places which is impossible to hold weddings! Haha! Thn, we bus-ed 173 back home. On the bus, we talked abt alot alot of things. & that makes me even sure that, I'll love her even more. She's my retarder, my spaghetti, my dummie, my heart.

& now im here blogging after sending her off. Mummy's coming back on monday! :D Yay! I don't feel like studying all of a sudden :X
& I really wish to get a own laptop and camera can. ): I wish to own photoshop too. I wish alot of wishes of mine will come true.
I wish my friendships will no longer be that brittle.

Thanks Shuning for comforting me ytd. Thanks shuning for all the things she did for me. Thanks shuning for everything. Thanks shuning. I love you. I don't know how to express both my love and gratitude to you :( I just want you to know that I'll be beside you if you need anyone.

The below song is dedicated to all my friends out there.
The very first time i heard this song. Memories of Tricia,Yiping,Jeslyn & me flashes in my mind..





I'll stand by you - Carrie Underwood

Oh, Why You Look So Sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause Ive seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don?t know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won?t let nobody hurt you
I?ll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if you?re wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won?t be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won?t let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

 


End of post.
goodbye.
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charmaine's dead. [May. 16th, 2008|08:53 pm]
today is a horrible day. shall not elaborate any further. 

but i hope i didn't hurt shuning. 

Shuning: 

I VEG YOU. I'm sorry if i hurt you in any ways. Thank you for always being there for me. Cheering me up, being so sweet. Thanks for listening to my craps at times. thanks for making me smile always. thanks for showering me w all your love and concern. i'm really sorry for hurting you this way. but i want to be true to you.. i want to make sure that there's no secrets between us and thr will be no misunderstandings. i cant afford to lose another friend. 

I think T left. she don't want me anymore.
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It's thursday. [May. 15th, 2008|08:32 pm]
[Current Mood |calmcalm]

Attire check was super strict today. -shivers-
All lessons today were okay. My music project group was stayed to suffer till 10.10am ! Ohmy, our recess is cut off like siao-,-
Nothing much to talk abt today. I'm somehow not in the mood to talk abt it anymore.

The high-ness came and go. Why cant those emo-ness be the same?

Their tags:
15 May 08, 01:39
klubster: tagged!
14 May 08, 23:18
daRen: LMAO! I think i know who Z is eh , too smart already ;D His name starts with J. LOL! When i started reading the start , i thought it was me D; lucky not me. HAHA[=
14 May 08, 19:39
shuning: Cheerful, Cute, Caring, Confident Charmaine, it's all C (:
14 May 08, 19:39
shuning: anyway the main point is that i'm not trying to spam you, but i hope you feel better already, and dont think too much! Thinking too much and knowing too much and caring too much isnt good! Just stay
14 May 08, 19:38
shuning: whoops did the road and rest stop and oil thing sounded weird? I just came up with it, heh.
14 May 08, 19:38
shuning: there are always 'add-oil-machine' (people) to help you out, add oil to you! [: I'M HERE OKAYYYYYYYYYYY.
14 May 08, 19:38
shuning: take care alright, the road ahead may be blur, and that you many face many problems, and feel that you may break down anytime. but know that, although there isn't a rest stop till a long way after ,
14 May 08, 19:37
shuning: Despo charmaine sounds cute :D Mm don't be offended! Hahah I"m Despo S and you're Despo C {: VEG <3
14 May 08, 18:56
feediyana: hi! im 6599832147. you sound much more happier. thats good. C=

My replies:
feediyana: Hello! :D Haha, thanks:] do you want to leave your link or smth? I'm really very interested to know who you are. Hahah.
shuning: Hehe, we're the despo family. LOL! despo veg<3 ahhh, thanks veg. always being there for me .. you made me wanna cry): lol, no it's not weird at all lah! okay, i shall stay Cheerful, Cute, Caring, Confident :)!  
daRen: eeyer, why so smart. shh, dont say dont say. 
klubster: i tagged your blog! :D yay! ^^v 


Life is short, yes i know. I shall try and love it, enjoy it, live it. 

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14052008 [May. 14th, 2008|03:23 pm]
[Current Mood |bouncybouncy]
[Current Music |dui ai ke wang - yang zhong wei]

Sheesh, I can't think of any title. Oh, I'm sorry that I didn't post ytd cause Celine was watching a show online. My house is pathetic. We only have ONE pathetic computer. All four(It used to be four.) of us have to share the pathetic computer. Now Cheryl has her laptop. Argh.

Oh! I finally know who's Glenda! :DD & She's damn cute. Look at our conversation outside music room ytd.

Glenda: Hi, Charmaine.
Me: HUH? -blurred, idk who's this girl.-
Glenda: I'm Glenda! -smiles-
Me: Ohohoh!

Haha. Yess. I'm so horrible right?:/ Yah, but I finally know who's Glenda & she's real cute when she started the above conversation. Lol, & ytd's Choir was quite okay just that i don't know why I've this weird feeling at my throat thr. Ahhhh.

I love Wednesdays;] it's just so short and the lessons were pretty relaxing:] Wooohoo. In the morning, the morning assembly was called off. They activated WWP. Nice:) & it was raining. Even nicer;) It's so windy and cooling:)) I think all lessons tdy were alright.

OH! AMANDA'S BACK TO SCHL TDY! Yay! :D She wrote me a long letter! Yay! I shall go reply her letter later, YAY! lol!

Okay,I didn't want to post this but I can't make it. I don't want to sound like it's Cyber-bully but i'm just complaining abt someone's personal hygiene here. Okay, I shall name this person Z.

Z is a guy with a pervertic and disgusting mindset. He can link all stuffs to disgustings stuffs. Even ask him to choose a number from 1 - 20 he straight away give you a disgusting smile & answer "6" Ha, you know what it means lah. So I could see Z from afar. Z was using his fingers & he digged his nose! That's disgusting enough alr but he went on to scratch his hair! He digged his nose again & he rubbed it against his shirt! He digged his nose again & Okay, i can't see clearly but it was REALLY close to his mouth!! -,- He digged his nose again and he didn't wash his hands he went to touch other things!! I was so ! @ # $ % ^ & I don't dare to touch the things he touched before.

I'm cyber-bullying it but I'm telling everyone, DON'T EVER DO THAT. Practise good personal hygiene please. I felt so disgusted. I feel like puking that moment. I beg everyone out thr, PRACTISE GOOD PERSONAL HYGIENE PLEASE!

Ohmygod. Yuck. The though of it made me so disgusted. Okay, i came back home & Cheryl & I were talking abt cameras. Manmanman, I want a Camera & a laptop please! Grant my wish & I shall LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU! I want them!
Oh okay back to topic. Cheryl & I thought of buying Kaiwen's camera (i remembered he once says he want to sell his cam..). yah. so i msged him but he say he's not selling anymore):

I really wish to own a camera & laptop can. If only I'm in tablet class. & it's unfair! 109 used to be a tablet class! >:{ Why can't they open 3 tablet classes like every year? :/ yah, grant my wish pleaseeeeeeeeee. I'm broke now.

Anyway, Mummy's going to China tmr. ): Will miss her. Bon voyage, Mummy! & Daryl's overseas now! I can't rmb whr he go ... :X But yah. hope he take care of himself:)

Their tags:
13 May 08, 10:12
6599832147: your friends. it may help you regain strengh. keep strong girl!
13 May 08, 10:11
6599832147: hey Jia Li. you may not know me... but im a nice person just dropping by your blog. please do not think im spaming it.. but you sound very stress? why not take a break on the weekends and go out with
12 May 08, 22:08
shuning: we're the SUPERGIRLS, stay STRONG, babe <3
12 May 08, 22:08
shuning: hahaha take care alright, dont sound so down! will make me super worried bout you ):
12 May 08, 22:08
shuning: YAY I'M YOUR MOTIVATION [:
12 May 08, 18:54
shawn: can i motivate u to come to school!:X
11 May 08, 21:21
YIPING :D: smirks! yay. i wanna go your house again. :D HOLIDAYS ARE COMING. YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe. it means mor emore more more more time to spend with you. :D

My replies:
YIPING :D : Yes!! We must spend almost half of the hols together okay?:D Wait for someone to buy me a camera thn we shall go snap snap snap! :D
shawn: Haha, Let's see what you do loh! Hehe:P
shuning: haha, yah. you're my motivation to go schl y'know. lol, okay, I'll try not to sound so down lovelovelove! :D thanksthanks eh.
6599832147: lol, leave your name next time please. lol, thanks:]] I'll try to be strong:]

 I shall end here.Goodbye:} 

buy me camera & laptop please! -sounds REALLY REALLY DESPO!-
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It's Monday): [May. 12th, 2008|06:10 pm]
[Current Mood |crappycrappy]

Hello:) 

1) Chem 2) HCL 3) Recess 4) Physics 5) English 6) lunchbreak 7) Maths 8) ACC 9) Dismiss! 10) Cheer pracs. 

I had a Chemistry quiz today. I think I'm going to do badly for it. Idk how to do the paper. HCL was pretty okay but Mdm Chong was pretty angry at the beginning. No one wants to go for recess tdy. not Chisze, not Yingshuang. I'm feeling super hungry. I didn't have anything for  breakfast. Went to eat something in the end. Physics. Gosh, we're ending Physics this term & Bio's coming up next! & that means, No Mr Chew! )): I really dont know how's Bio like & will I suffer? Comparing Physics & Chem, I prefer Physics. 

English was okay too. Went to buy a notebook for my Maths. I wrote down notes till I used up my pages for maths notebook:) We tried to make dumplings during ACC:) I answered a question correctly & got one! ;D hehe. haven eat :X Dismiss! But not too happy yet as we've to stay for the cheer pracs. 

Left at 3.15pm instead of 3.45pm . Have tuition initially but was cancelled. There's Choir tmr:) Frankly, I love Choir but I can't stand the long hours. It made me feel uber tired.): 

Oh! Let's just hope thr isn't any calculation error cause I got 1st in class for HCL! :D But it's an A2. That's what I'm disappointed. I wish to get an A1 for HCL. I got back my English & it was horrible -,- 22/40 y'know! -,- Maths was 31/40 :) Nice. I like:) hehe. so yah. Quite okay :X

A sad thing is that my keychain is going to break any moment): Stupid-,- The moment I finished typing that sentence, my keychain broke): Ahhhhh, my cute little idk what creature is that. is it a cat? :/ I'm so gonna buy another one! & one for retarder too:) since she's bugging me since i bought my keychain. 

I thought alot tdy morning on my way to schl. I realised how much I did not want to go to schl.It's been so long. I've yet found anything that motivates me to go to schl and enjoy. Except for chances to meet Amanda & Shuning. Nothing else matters. 

Okay, I think I shall end here before I get real emo -,-
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HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! <3 [May. 11th, 2008|08:18 pm]

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! <3 

Spent my day at my aunt house. Nothing much happened:} 

I love my mummy <3 

School's tmr-,- SIAN-,-

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAOQING! [May. 10th, 2008|08:09 pm]
[Current Music |In love with you]

STUPID, I POSTED A SUPER LONG POST & IT JUST GONE LIKE THAT-,- fup.

Happy birthday HaoQing! :D



I'm sorry for not posting ytd as I had too much fun & thus I'm super tired. 
Before I blog abt ytd and tdy... 

离开的时候要回头看被你留下的人，说不定他们正伤心。－斗牛要不要

Ytd

1) Lit 2) P.E 3) Geog 4) Recess 5) Art 6) Maths 7) Lunch 8) ICT 9) PC 10) Dismiss! 11) 6diamond meeting!!

I shall talk abt them briefly. We did some discussion for proj during lit. i retest my pullup for p.e and i just did pathetic 3 -,- at least i passed:D Had a geog test and feel like crying after the paper-,- i cant rmb anything!! Art we did theory. Had a maths lvl test and it's tough -,- we played w photoshop during ict:D we did cheer discussion again for PC. Dismiss! I chionged to 107 to look for shawn:D we waited for idk how many hours for my mummy to fetch us to LPS for 6diamond meeting!! ;D

Reached LPS & I saw Zhenghan & Zelin!! Hohoho, so we chionged up to the hall & saw many 6diamondians playing w captains' ball! OMGGGGG! I miss them so much cann! It was super funnnnnn! :DD Yah, the guys keep on winning till I kneel down and cry! LOL! & the three RV guys made me "DETEST" RV ! they kept on blocking me and just hit off the ball without me knowing! -,- so we all played and fooled arnd. Zhenghan and I were like fooling arnd and we played w our strength and stuffs. hohoho, Zhenghan never win me before. not now, not in the past, not in the future! mwahahha! Gosh, I serioously miss them soooo much. super duber much. why is it that we only know to cherish them when things are so different now?
though most of them walked off without saying goodbye, im satisfied alr. seeing so many of them playing arnd having so much fun. we screamed, we shout, we compete w the guys.. uber fun can.

after that, Retarder yiping, haoqing & crystal came over for bbq. yah, and daryl and jianjie joined us after that. both of them came and fooled arnd and tricked me -,- argh. yah, so yiping stayed til the latest. i went to sleep after she leave. cause i've tuition the next day.

Tdy
I woke up at 8.30am like that. had tuition at 10am and i think tdy's lessons' pretty fine. firstly, tutor's not late:) thn we did science. we chatted for the last half an hour. chatted abt maths, science, physics, how to memorise things, how to study , talked abt my old hse, my family.blahblah. it's quite fruitful lah, she gave me some advices too:) so, it's not just chatting for nothing okayyyyy.

I slacked and did nothing all the way till 3like that. i went to bathe and off we went to changi to fetch my maid, tusiah! she's back! ;D hehe. yah, and thrfore, my the other maid won't feel sad cause we wont have communication prob anymore! :D hehe.

Celine & I w our aunt went to buy mothers' day present. we (the four of us) bought a watch for mummy! :D after discount, $140. yah, we didnt have cash w us that time so got our aunt to pay first. we ARE going to return her the money. don't worry.

nownownow, this is the first year we're not going out for meal on mothers' day as my daddy's overseas. hmmm, maybe we shld cook lunch for mummy tmr?:DD hehehe. I've attended Home Econs lessons okay!! lol! jkjk.

Okay, nothing much. but i've to chiong homework tmr. & i think there's a Chemistry test on monday-,- 

gooodbye:) 

Their tags: 

9 May 08, 18:05
Milly: sorry! giv u e wrong address yesterdae=0 he-is-juz-whom-i-desired-for.blogspot.com
9 May 08, 12:59
Christine: at the bright side :D
9 May 08, 12:59
Christine: hey, cheer up ! the more you think you are stupid, the more you are . Think positive ok ? You went in to nanhua, & i went to greenridge. did i tink i am stupid? no right. So, cheer up girl ! :) look
9 May 08, 12:35
HAOQING:): see you later ! :D using class com now. oops. haha. XP I LOVE CHARMAINE LEEEE!!!!XD
8 May 08, 21:31
felicia: haha, hope you're much better now.
8 May 08, 21:29
felicia: HAHA chisze's so adorable :] but yeah, cheer up love.
8 May 08, 21:24
Milly: dun be depressed! although i dun know wat had happened, but i sincerely hope tat u can b happy! by e way, relink me @ he-is-whom-i-desired-for.blogspot.com! thx=)
8 May 08, 21:05
Chisze: please cheer up uhs!!! coz i'll love you forever derhs my darl!!!!!!!!!! :D
8 May 08, 21:05
Chisze: cheer up kayss???
8 May 08, 17:37
Christine: Haha, Np ^,^

My replies: 

Christine: lol:) 
Chisze: Haha, thanks:) 
Milly: :) thanksthanks:)
felicia:) yah, thankyou:)) 
Haoqing: horhor, naughty ah. use schl comp. lol, 
Christine: thanks:)


A nice song to intro!




(Jacky)
Just a gentle whisper, tell me that you'd gone
Leaving only memories, where did we go wrong?
I couldn't find the words then, so let me say them now
I'm still in love with you
(Regine)
Tell me that you love me, tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me, and I'll be there
I'll be there waiting...
(Regine/Jacky)
I will always love you, I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
Come to me now
I will never leave you, I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
I'm in love with you
(Jacky)
Now we've here together, yesterday has past
Life is just beginning, close to you at last
And I promise to you, I will always be there
I give my all to you
(Regine)
Living life without you is more that I can bear
Hold me close forever,
I'll be there...
(Jacky)
I'll be there for you
(Regine/Jacky)
I will always love you, I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
This I promise...
I will never leave you, I will stand here with you
Though the good and bad I will stand true
Hold me closer...
Our love is forever, holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now
(Jacky)
Love has found
(Regine)
Love has found a way ...
(Regine/Jacky)
I'm in love, I'm in love
Yes I'm in love, so in love
I'm so in love with you....

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stupid. [May. 8th, 2008|08:23 pm]

I FEEL REALLY STUPID NOW. 
CHARMAINE LEE IS SERIOUSLY IDIOTIC-,- 
PEOPLE DISLIKE HER AND SHE DISLIKE HERSELF TOO. 
FUP W HERSELF. 
STUPID. 
DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO STUDY & SCORE WELL. 
DON'T BE SO FREAKING STUPID CAN. 
LIKE, OBVIOUSLY NO ONE WILL WANT TO CARE FORYOU LAH. STUPID.

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Those days those memories. [May. 7th, 2008|08:53 pm]
[Current Mood |depresseddepressed]
[Current Music |Zai Ci Xiang Xin]



It's a random picture took last year. but surprisingly, all four of us were posted to Nanhua. If only Jonathan did not appeal to RV... I was looking through my friendster photos when I saw this photo. Though I'm the only girl(okay, i look really stupid in this photo..), I just felt really down when I saw this photo. The people, the background, the venue, the mood, the memories... Why? I miss all of them so much. So much, so much. Photo above: (From Left to Right:) ME. Shawn. Jonathan. Jingyu. & I know Jonathan for 9years+ alr. That's pretty long eh:X



This photo was taken like .. 2 years ago?:/

1) Open Space 2) English 3) Recess 5) Physics 6) HCL 9) CEP 10) Dismiss! 

All lessons were okay. Nothing much to talk abt schl today. I'm getting more and more depressed recently. I've been thinking alot recently. Both negative and positive stuffs & obviously, I think of more negative stuffs lah. The thought just come and never go. I really hope I can just sit down at a place and chat w anyone who's really true to our friendship, who really cared for me and not just putting up a show. I hope I can just sit down and just get everything out of my heart. I wanted to talk it all out w YiPing on 9may but she says she can't make it. I invited quite a number of them and so far, all were unable to turn out. i felt super depressed. not because no one wants to come to the party, i'll be so childish to have such thoughts. I felt super depressed cause i feel so lonely. 

At times, I really wish to just sleep and never wake up. At times, I really wish to just lean on one's shoulders both physically & mentally. 

Haha, I realise there's no such word as forever alr. 

love you forever? friends forever? classmates forever? retarder, dear,baobeh forever? yah, as if. 

Like what i told shuning earlier on, i shall tell myself too. 

尽量往好的方面去想吧！

＂感谢伤害我的人
带来保护我的人＂-- 林宥嘉 

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